July 9, 2015
Facing Fear, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma
Action, depression, facing fear, finding freedom, Forgiving My Mother, healing, Letting Go, motherhood, Struggle to Forgive
It’s been a roller coaster ride the last 6 months during my blogging sabbatical. Continued growth, awareness, & forgiveness; betrayal; and a surprise!
My decision to back away from blogging and other optional activities was born of necessity. Some important relationships were requiring intensive attention, and I needed to focus on figuring out what my role was in each relationship. It’s never pretty looking in the mirror, but always worth it in the end.
It’s easy to think relationships are strong when times are good.
But when things go awry, you find out what the relationship is really made of.
December 20, 2014
Facing Fear, Family, My Journey with God, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma
childhood trauma, Christmas Memories, emotional strength, Facing Adversity, facing fear, Family, forgiving dad, Forgiving My Father, healing, Letting Go, Mental Health, recovery, Spiritual Journey, Transformation
Dad’s birthday is today; gone now nearly 5 years, he would be turning 92.
He hated Christmas. Apparently his birthday was forgotten every year in the midst of Christmas preparations when he was growing up. The pain of being forgotten never seemed to leave him. He would not allow us to put up a tree until his birthday had passed, and even then did so grudgingly.
I know now Dad’s Christmas experience is only a tiny window into his life story. More
August 7, 2014
Facing Fear, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma
abuse survivor, childhood trauma, emotional strength, Facing Adversity, facing fear, finding freedom, Forgiveness, getting help, gratitude, healing, Letting Go, personal growth, PTSD, recovery, Spiritual Journey, Struggle to Forgive, Suicidal, Transformation, trauma, truth, wearing masks
Feeling better seems to be a universal goal of humankind.
When we’re experiencing physical, emotional, or spiritual pain, the instinct to feel better can take on a life of its own. Most of us don’t even realize our subconscious is in overdrive doing whatever it takes to avoid bad feelings.
The problem is this: what makes us feel better usually isn’t what makes us get better.
Feeling Better More
July 28, 2014
Family, Personal Growth
Bucket List, facing fear, Letting Go, motherhood, Pacific Crest Trail
Our daughter is fulfilling a Bucket List dream, and it’s got my momma heart twisted all sorts of ways. I’m proud, immensely proud, but of course I’m also nervous.
A journey of 500 miles begins with a single step…
She’s hiking over 500 miles More
January 30, 2014
Family, Personal Growth, Recovery
adoption, childhood trauma, emotional strength, Facing Adversity, facing fear, Family, finding freedom, Forgiveness, Forgiving My Father, Forgiving My Mother, healing, Letting Go, Linda Hoye, Mental Health, Philomena, recovery, Transformation, truth, Two Hearts
The theme of adoption has always been of interest to me. As a child I used to tell people I was adopted. I always thought if you were adopted it meant you were wanted, therefore special. It never occurred to me there might be pain involved in being adopted, or giving a child up for adoption. Over the years I’ve spoken with people on both sides of the adoption picture and now understand it’s not the fairy tale I used to fantasize about.
The British movie Philomena caught my eye recently because of the adoption theme. Then it captured my heart because of the healing and forgiveness in her story. More
November 28, 2013
Facing Fear, Family, My Journey with God, Personal Growth
emotional strength, Facing Adversity, facing fear, Family, getting help, gratitude, healing, Letting Go, recovery, Spiritual Journey, Transformation, truth
Thanksgiving Day has arrived here in the States.
A sense of gratitude arrived with it early this morning. It blanketed me ever so softly with comfort and peace even as I sit with uncertainty. Calm such as this truly is a gift from God.
I had my mammogram recently; a few months overdue. I know… I know it’s important. But it hurts. I don’t care how many people say it doesn’t, it does.
The same tech who’s done my mammograms for over 15 years flattened my breasts into pancakes once again. Each smashing was accompanied with apologies and assurances it would be over soon. “Be still and hold your breath, hon.” We did this several times and I waited for the okay to get my shirt back on. She scrutinized the screen with a practiced eye, then dismissed me to the dressing room. When I pulled the curtain back, she said “You’ll get a call in a few days saying everything is fine, or you need to come back. But you’ll get a call either way.” I guess this is to lessen the anxiety about seeing your doctor’s number on the incoming caller ID.
Sure enough, I got a call last week saying they’d seen something ‘suspicious’ and wanted me to come back for a re-check. More
November 9, 2013
Facing Fear, Family, Personal Growth, Recovery
emotional strength, Facing Adversity, finding freedom, getting help, healing, Letting Go, truth, wearing masks
The truth lay buried in me for so long, I sometimes doubted it myself when it dared to rise up uninvited, desperate to be heard.
Following what I’d been taught, I shoved it down repeatedly until the day I no longer could.
Truth alone will endure, all the rest will be swept away before the tide of time. I must continue to bear testimony to truth even if I am forsaken by all. Mine may today be a voice in the wilderness, but it will be heard when all other voices are silenced, if it is the voice of Truth. ~Ghandi~