Charlie Rose and my Dad

November 21, 2017

Zoe Hisey Facing Fear, Family, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma Charlie Rose, depression, Gayle King, Mental Health, recovery, truth 27 Comments

Thanks to Gayle King, I’m in tears this morning…fresh tears remembering how hard it was to tell someone what Dad had done to me for so many years. And how similar Charlie Rose is to my Dad. The power. Oh. My. God. The. Power. More

Life Without My BF

September 19, 2017

Zoe Hisey Family, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma friendship, recovery, truth 30 Comments

Several months ago, a very cherished friendship ended.

I’ve been grieving the loss ever since, but today I’m really missing her.

Even though it was me who said I couldn’t continue the friendship, More

It’s going to be beautiful

August 6, 2017

Zoe Hisey Facing Fear, My Journey with God, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma Action, Adventure, Family, gratitude, grief, healing, Mental Health, moving forward, recovery, truth 36 Comments

Last month I went on a 2500 mile solo camping trip on my motorcycle. I went through 7 states in 6 days.

I was both excited and nervous to go solo, but also determined to face my fears.

It was time for some growth.

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Turns out I had so much fun, my fears were forgotten, and definitely for naught. The trip was a confidence booster, and equally important, gave me much needed time for reflection. More

My Crash

May 7, 2017

Zoe Hisey Personal Growth 17 Comments

Last night I watched “Sully” with Tom Hanks,

My heart pounded,

Memories rose with angst.

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(This is the lake we crashed in, photo taken a prior year than our crash)

We each crashed in the water,

Me a frightened child,

He a hero, husband, and father

Now I Understand

October 15, 2016

Zoe Hisey Alcoholic Parents, Family, Personal Growth, Recovery healing, Health, Mental Health, motherhood, parenting, recovery, truth 25 Comments

Over the years, I’ve heard several women say they had no intention of babysitting if they had grand kids, or even if they already had them. I was mystified. I couldn’t imagine feeling that way, and assumed if I had grand kids wild horses couldn’t keep me away.

Then I had grand kids.

While it’s true that wild horses can’t keep me away and I do babysit every chance I get…I think I now understand why some people avoid their grand babies and choose not to babysit.

The first few months after our first grandson was born in January was such a confusing mix of joy and pain. I couldn’t understand why I felt so much pain and sorrow when I was so excited and happy. More

This is What I’ve been up to…

June 20, 2016

Zoe Hisey Family, My Journey with God, Personal Growth Family, finding freedom, gratitude, healing, motherhood, parenting, recovery 35 Comments

Two Grandsons -4 months apart!!!!

Lucas arrived in January to our daughter and son-in-law…

Dawson joined the party in May, to our son and daughter-in-law.

These cousins are so cute, and has this Nana all in a swoon!!!

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Between Bookends…

November 22, 2015

Zoe Hisey Family, My Journey with God, Personal Growth Family, Forgiveness, motherhood, parenting 39 Comments

Mom moved into an assisted living facility this month. She turned 90 this year, and she’s been legally blind for several years so it’s probably overdue.

Still, it comes on the heels of me finding out I’ll be a grandma in a few short months.

I feel sandwiched in the middle of two life altering events. Mom easing into her final chapter, my grandson soon to make his debut chapter.

The timing is odd, the emotions hard to describe.

The Starfish Story

August 20, 2015

Zoe Hisey Personal Growth facing fear, Forgiveness, getting help, gratitude, hope 27 Comments

The Starfish Story came to mind recently when I let someone know how much of a difference they’ve made in my life. I have been the starfish, now it is my turn to be the boy.

Roller Coaster Ride

July 9, 2015

Zoe Hisey Facing Fear, Personal Growth, Recovery, Trauma Action, depression, facing fear, finding freedom, Forgiving My Mother, healing, Letting Go, motherhood, Struggle to Forgive 38 Comments

It’s been a roller coaster ride the last 6 months during my blogging sabbatical. Continued growth, awareness, & forgiveness; betrayal; and a surprise!

My decision to back away from blogging and other optional activities was born of necessity. Some important relationships were requiring intensive attention, and I needed to focus on figuring out what my role was in each relationship. It’s never pretty looking in the mirror, but always worth it in the end.

It’s easy to think relationships are strong when times are good.

But when things go awry, you find out what the relationship is really made of.

Finding My Voice

January 24, 2015

Zoe Hisey Facing Fear, Personal Growth, Recovery abuse survivor, emotional strength, facing fear, finding freedom, healing, personal growth, recovery, Transformation, truth 22 Comments

***On a blog sabbatical until July 2015***

Keeping secrets, not telling. The truth was strangled in my throat for so many years.

Once I became strong enough to tell my truth to one, then another, I found increasing healing and empowerment in my words. Getting the awfulness out in the open helped make the darkness flee.

Over time, telling my truth to safe people strengthened me to be able to speak my truth to anyone -even if they didn’t believe me.

Starting this blog nearly 3 years ago has been such an incredibly important part of me speaking truth in a whole new way. Recently, I’ve discovered More